RyE On Happiness/Familia

Lately I've been feeling a bit lost. My heads been overloaded with things that I can't seem to focus. I forget conversations I have with people, forget what I'm doing in the MIDDLE of doing it. I feel like I'm losing my damn mind. It's been a long time since I can say that I am truly happy with my life.

I've been saying I'm maintaining instead of excelling. I've been saying I'm satisfied instead of saying fulfilled. And more importantly I've been saying I've seen better days than saying I'm good I'm happy.

There's a number of factors that contribute to this. My job, my current status, my relationship, some of the friendships/people I associate myself with.

I'll briefly break down each one for you:

• My Job - I HATE it. My passion is gone. My patience with everyone and everything we go through has BEEN gone. My problem is that it pays the bills and I'm better than the rest at what I do. So like every catch 22 I'm stuck in a predicament. But I know I'll figure someway out...I always do
• My Current Status - Like I mentioned before I feel like I'm maintaining instead of excelling. I need to start making moves towards a more rewarding life. I am a home owner but barely get to live life because all my money goes to mortgage payments and bills. The American Dream ain't always what it seems. You only live once right so fuck it...lets go on a shopping spree haha
• Problems with the wife...don't discuss em
• I feel like everyone's got their own agenda. Rightfully so they should look out for their own well being especially in a time like this.What pisses me off are the two face bitches that say something to save face only to turn around and deny it when they are called out on it. Then there are those pple who you can't seem to understand but something in your gut just tells you that they have a hidden agenda.
  

(Sidebar) I know this is a little off track but I was on the train today and a woman was standing up but decided to crouch down about half way from 71st to Roosevelt Ave. For those who take the F know this is a pretty long stop in between. There was a woman sitting down who got up at the next stop and this other woman, I'll call her the bitch, who was standing at the time decided to take the seat instead of giving it to the poor woman who was unable to even stand (I'll call her Rosa). Another woman said to the bitch that Rosa was pregnant and should give her seat up but that didn't stop the bitch who replied "she'll be fine." Thankfully a man sitting gave up her seat so that Rosa could sit but I couldn't believe that bitch. Now at the time my girl was telling me she hates how NYers are so cold and I basically responded..eh its the survival of the fittest. Whatever I was running through in my head it was cold hearted on a Monday morning. Sadly though I do feel this way.

Getting back to my point above. I feel like right now I only got a handful of people I can just bare my soul so to speak and say whats on my mind. But the rest...the rest is all on me. I feel like I'm Rosa alone in this world with no one to give me a helping hand. Not that I'm looking for one but sometimes its nice to know that someones got my back. I felt this way all morning till I remembered how I felt this past Sat....

I was with my family on Saturday for the baptism of Sophia (the newest baby girl to the family). I found out that there will be not one...not two...but THREE new babies coming our way soon! I couldn't wait to spread the good news. It felt awesome being with my family. After the party we went back to my cousins house where all my tita's and titos and cousins watched their most recent trip to the Philippines this fall to see the opening of the Capilla de San Antonio.....

Part 2 to come (sorry it's late)

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RyE on Farewell Letter

This is great!

SENIOR MEDIA PLANNER NINJA CZAR

(CLICK IT)

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RyE on Circles

Take me back to the start

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RyE On Inspiration

I've been inspired...Good Bye Corporate America

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RyE on The Girls Waiting on the Line for the Bathroom

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RyE on Current Status

So I was writing about a particular topic or blog if I should be so politically correct. But my mind starting drifting into a million other things. SO I'll just freestyle this off the dome:

Breakups to Makeups

Lets face it. Breakups suck.

They never happen when you want it to be and they never feel good. The worst part about breaking up is having to go through the public portion of the break up. I'm not a celebrity nor do I ever plan on becoming one but us "regular folks" still get scrutinized for every aspect and decision of our lives by our peers and those we surround ourselves with.

When couples break up your friends start to draw the line. It's worst when a couple starts mixing their friends and now its Team Him vs Team Her. Anyone ever see the movie The Breakup? Yea it's similar to that.

I was having a discussion with my friend who recently went through one. It wasn't a pretty one. But I'm not going to sit here and put her story out on front street. The conversation lead to if I was in that situation I would be in the same position as her ex.

I even had this conversation with my girlfriend about this and even she agrees. And that position would be that I would be the one that is looked at as the sympathy guy. And something SHE did had to cause the relationship to end. I'm going to call this the JT Effect. Let's be honest...homeboy kept it moving (and looks like he's still moving) from one lady to the next and no one EVER shitted on him. Hell they even vilified Janet for showing a titty but um if I'm not mistaken it was Mr. A little overzealous JT that went HARD on the ripoff. But I digress....

It pains me to think that if the break up occurred that petty girls would be lining up to say shit about her. All my life I've maintained good relationships with my ex girlfriends (with the exception of two cunt bags) because you do the right thing.

You put aside the childish games. Be an adult and act in a mature respectful way. I don't care if you were the one that broke it off you can't deny that if they ever meant anything to you that you don't still love them as a person. And leave the sideline acts exactly where they are meant to be....on the sidelines. Teams are for sports don't bring them into a relationship.

Remember that your friends are extensions of you so if they act incorrectly over misinformation that reflects on you. It is your responsibility to calm the fires and by not acting only intensifies the flames.

So to all the people on the wrong side of the breakups I'm here...and I understand.

Dear Me (a few years earlier)

Two of my friends got this crazy idea from the big blog whore Perez Hilton. It's to write a letter to your younger self. Instantly I thought of a witty remark that I would say to myself if I was younger. Then I was thinking that this is a little foolish. I'm only 25 I don't know anymore than I did when I was 21. Then..like my overactive brain always does and over analyzes shit I was having a debate with myself that I wouldn't tell younger me anything because they need to go through the mistakes in order to be a better person. (Editors Note: I'm a HUGE believer that you can achieve victory in defeat therefore you never lose).

Finally I came to the realization that what I'm thinking is stupid. I kind of backtracked and realized that there is more to this exercise than meets the eye. This is a therapeutic release. It reminded me of my senior year in HS during my retreat. We had to write down a "nice" thing to your friends. Little did I know that experience would change my life. (That's another story)

I just don't know if I would be ready to write a letter or to what younger version of myself I would write to. I would ideally write this on my death bed. And I would pass it onto my grandkids (all 87 of them lol). But if I had to write one now I would write it to either Junior year HS Rye or Freshmen Year College RyE.

Who knows...maybe in the near future I'll just write to both

A little something you should know

I'm tired of everyone expecting me to live up to THEIR expectations of me. I don't know if you realized this but I am like a BIG jigsaw puzzle. I have many different pieces that make me whole. Some pieces don't make sense until you start to piece them together with other pieces. I like to look at my life as an artform. A movie even. And the ending hasn't been written yet so just sit back and enjoy the art of it.

News flash: I am NOT always cocky. In fact I am a very humble person. I DON'T always have to dictate things. I DON'T always need to win. I NEVER strive to live up to a certain pedigree of others. However I DO like to be emotional. I DO like to be true to myself no matter what. I don't have to pretend to like something just because everyone else does and I don't have to go against the grain just because no one else is.

That's just too much thinking for one person to do. Be real and stay consistent. Just because I act one way one day doesn't mean you should automatically label me as THAT. I am 25 yr old man looking for his way through life and living it the best way I know how. I go through a roller coaster of emotions so when I'm Mr. Popular one day and then the next I put on my nerd glasses know how those two pieces of the puzzles are put together so you get the BIGGER picture of ME.

one. love

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RyE On The Best Page in The Universe

VROOOOOOOM F
(Click it)

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RyE & Cathy F on Go To Goodbye Maneuver

Cathy F: :P
RyE: yoo
RyE: lol i dont know why i said i would call you
RyE: i was running out yesterday for this thing and for some reason that was the last thing i wrote
RyE: and i didnt even realize it haha
Cathy F: lolol
Cathy F: i looked at it like, ok
Cathy F: lol
RyE: sorry u def got the non attentive goodbye yesterday
RyE: cause thats what i say
RyE: "ill call you"
RyE: thats my go to goodbye maneuver
Cathy F: lolol

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RyE on MANswers

I learned two valuable lessons watching Spikes MANswers.

1. I love you Jo Garcia
2. I have been to the worlds largest strip club (fist pump)
   

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RyE & Joel on NY'ers Apathy

RyE :;">how was ur flight home
Joel: 2 people got sick
Joel: people in NY are mad apathetic
Joel: we were like "whats going on"
Joel: (eating terra trips)
RyE: sick as in throwing up?
Joel: nah like oxygen tank
RyE: jeez
RyE: as long as the plane is stable
RyE: id eat my chips too
RyE: munch munch
Joel: yeah man
Joel: face off was on TV

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RyE on A Beautiful Mind

She has been there from the start.

By the start I mean my post "irresponsible years." You know...the years after college when shit supposedly gets "real." When you go and start your career and make it as a real true adult (though I feel like I've been doing that a long time ago).

But yea...she has been there from the beginning. The one that popped my cherry into this responsible adult life you can probably say haha.

And she's been there ever since. And is connected to every aspect of me.

Been in the game with me like a coach and a teammate.

Battling in the industry with me with all the bullshit.

Helping me stay focus on my business.

(Editors Note: Game = Life/ Industry = Current Job Market/ Business = money, career, life goals)

For however many times I put myself down, doubted myself or just was unsure about what to do next she always was there to pull me back up, reassure myself and clarify what I already knew what to do.

There is a bond there that's special.

As the years went by I can only say we have gotten stronger and the bond has grown.

And though I feel like maybe I wasn't holding up my end of the bargain in the relationship I think that's starting to change.

It's always good to have someone to go to but it's rewarding when the person you go to comes to you for guidance every now and then.

I can't exactly say when it happened but I have an idea when. (ok maybe I just don't want you all to know this!)

So I guess what I am saying is...for all the times you were there for me. For all the reassuring comments and the smart ass "I told you so's" that followed...I just wanted to say thank you.

"You are a catch"
"You the you the best"
"You are better than the rest"
"You have 'it' "
"You're a charming ass" - (lol)
"You are a leader"
- (editors note: I think that despite the reference to one of the most despised villains on earth I know what she means)

All that said all I can say is...right back at you Beautiful.

oh yea (lil ass slap) haha

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RyE On Ego Trippin Part 3 (Knowing His Role)

The Best

I never asked to be on top.

But I always strive to be there.

Being on top of my game.

The top is all relevant to you.

The Top of your business. The Top of your peers. The Top of your surroundings.

It's funny when you start hearing enough people say things about you that you start to take notice of what they say.

Never been the one to really take myself so serious about what others think or perceive of me.

I know who I am and what I've contributed to the game. The game I call life I ain't never been fucked you can call me celibate.

I'm rarely out of my element cause I always keep one foot in and one foot out with a firm grip on reality.

I bring to the table what I know best from the ghetto to the Corp. I'm as intelligent as the next but I just utilize it better than most.

Don't like to label myself as anything other than the best. Not to jack Jay's swag but I ain't a business man I'm just a smart man handling his business.

My learning curve is ridiculous. There is no limit to my knowledge and no self righteous barriers to prevent me from being the student.

But don't think the student can't teach. ;)

Hell I'm a preacher with a sermon to preach.

And I got a following I never intended to reach.

Though my head is in the clouds my feet are firmly on the pavement. ALL my moves are calculated from a simple head nod to signing off on multi million negotiations. (What you think that just because I know of who you are I'm going to acknowledge you? Nah homie, consider it a blessing when I show interest)

That statement above is what my "business folks" don't like about me. The industry ain't make me. I'm only in it for a minute so cherish every second you get.

I am a game changer and people take notice.

Me playing small doesn't help this me or those around me.

If I am to lead I want to lead bright and push those around me to be better than me.

I've done the block and it's time to make my international rounds.

So check the stats one more time:

• Been hustlin since the age of 13.
• Paid taxes at the age of 15.
• Had a 401K with health benefits at 19.
• Been a President twice before 21.
• High demand at 23
• Home Owner when the market bottomed out
• Reached my Quarter Century and nigga I'm about my BUSINESS!

So when I say I'm the best bitch I got my reasons.

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